Ki! Ki!: April 2019

You will never see me at the sunset again

Somewhere, March 2019

飛往溫哥華機場的路上。

今晚收到一通電話，護士把要說的話都說完了後，把電話交回給她。然後電話另一邊的人說：「佢唔會醒啦、佢唔會醒啦。」那一刻我感覺不到傷心，但非常想哭。

On the way to Vancouver airport.

Today we received a call. Te nurse gave the phone back to her after she told us everything she could say. Then the other side of the phone was saying, "He is not going to awake. He is not going to awake." I didn't feel sad at that moment but wanted to cry.

日光。/ Morning light.

雲不同的形態。/ Clouds of different shapes.

夕光。/ Sunset's light.

開始變暗。/ Getting darker.

窗外看得見星星。/ We could see stars through the window.

日出的光。/ Light from the sunrise.

海岸山脈 / Coast Mountains

會否有一天我都能登上這些雪山。/ Will there be a day when I could get to the summit of these Glaciers.

出日。/ Sun came out.

他以後都不會醒了。他不會再抽菸、不會再吃蟹、不會再飲啤酒、不會再踏單車。
He will never wake up again. He will not smoke again, eat crab again, drink beer and cycle again.

(Olympus OM-1, Kodak Colorplus 200)

❤ HK ❤

Lion Rock, Kowloon, Hong Kong, February 2019

又是這個風景。

今天做了一樣很愚蠢的事。我練書法途中，沒有洗手便去把剛洗完的白色衫從洗衣機拿出來掠乾，然後發現白色衫沾染了黑色的墨汁。

今天下雨，我撐開雨傘遮雨時，傘斷開了兩折。

我仍然對香港又愛又恨。

今年可能有幾位認識的人搬離香港。有點傷心。

This view again.

I did something stupid today. When I was practising my calligraphy today, I took out my white blouse from the washing machine and hang it without washing my hand beforehand. I found that it was stained with the black ink.

Today it rained. When I opened my umbrella, the umbrella was broken into 2 pieces.

I still love and hate HK.

A few people I know probably move out of HK this year. It actually makes me kinda sad.

不知道今後的路應怎樣走。我沒有計劃，沒有目標，只有見步行步。

(Nikon F2, Kodak Portra 400)

In the deepest ocean

Hong Kong, ?? (Summer) 2018

大約5年前，有人在這附近一躍而下。

這棟大廈有兩條樓梯。大約5年前，有一位女士走到其中一條樓梯，她把某兩層之間的玻璃打碎，然後跳下去。如果是在相中的這條樓梯的話，我們都應該是看到類似的風景，只是現在再多了一些建築地盤和高樓大廈。

最近都很有感去寫很多字。

最近每晚都發很多很多的夢。有時會在夢中見到認識的人，他們都在做一些不是平時現實中見到他們會做的事。有時會做惡夢，非常非常可怕的惡夢。夢中自己死時閉上眼，再張開眼時已回到清醒的世界，原來自己驚醒了，不過很快可以再入睡，再接着發下一個夢。

之前試過不想發夢，每晚都很夜才入睡，每天都只睡得很小，累得自己都不會再發夢。

之前試過發一個色調美好的夢，夢中自己希望永遠不會夢醒。

Around 5 years ago, someone jumped from somewhere nearby.

This building has 2 staircases. Around 5 years ago, a woman walked to one of the staircases, broke a window between 2 of the floors and jumped. If it was the same staircase in this photo, we should be looking at a similar view. Maybe now we have more construction site and high-rise buildings.

Recently I am in mood of writing more words.

Recently I made lots of dreams at night. Sometimes I dreamed on people I know and they were doing the things they don't normally in reality. Sometimes I had nightmares which could be very scary to me. After I died and closed my eyes in my dream, I woke up and came back to the real world but then I would fall asleep again very soon and made the next dream.

Selfie!

大部分相都在上年夏天攝於灣仔。

我自己有一部海鷗4b相機，但這一部不是我那一部。這部是借人的，還機時還被人誣蔑 (機主很小氣的) 我弄壞了部機。之後我自己買了一部，鏡頭改了做 tessar鏡。可以留意下，2019年2月之後海鷗4b的相都是tessar鏡版影的。

自沖菲林很好玩。

Most of the photos were shot in Wan Chai.

I had my own Seagull 4b camera but this one is not the one I own. This one is borrowed from a friend. Mine has the lens changed to tessar. After Feb 2019, all the photos shot with Seagull 4b is from the tessar one.

Developing film by myself is fun.

(Seagull 4b, Fujifilm Acros 100, self developing with Fujifilm Super Prodol)

Notre-Dame de Paris

Notre Dame Cathedral, Paris, France, May 2014

今天巴黎聖母院發生大火。很傷心。五年前我一個人到巴黎旅遊，當時還在想，希望有機會再來，下次到訪要選一個遊客時的時間，清靜地再去每個去過的地方。

但奈何很多東西都未必有下次，未必能再見。

我真的很想可以再到歐洲，特別是德國。

Today Notre Dame Cathedral was engulfed by a catastrophic fire today. Sad. 5 years ago I visited Paris by myself. I was thinking to visit Paris again and next time I should visit all the place I had been at a quieter time with less tourists.

Sadly, "next time" could not be applied to everything.

I want to visit Europe again, especially Germany.